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A vision
Division
Revision
Recognate
An action
A reaction
Distraction
Question the fate
Revision is impossible. No matter how hard I try, I cannot focus enough to revise and my first of seven exams is on monday. ARGH! [proof VV]
Also my mum has further complicated things, although possibly in a good way. So she used to work as a nanny & one of the families she worked for were/are race horse trainers. The other day I told my mum that the only thing I've ever wanted to do is work with horses & I wouldn't care if it left me completely broke. Believe it or not she suggested contacting the family she worked for saying she could get me a job working for them, or use them as a contact to get me somewhere else. Now normally I would jump at the chance BUT I cannot watch steeplechasing on television after seeing horses die in the grand national. I am not enjoying uni. I do not want to be a civil engineer. What do I do? Face my fear (if you can call it that) or stick out my degree at try to get a half-decent qualification?! My brain tells me one thing, my heart another.
I am repeatedly told by my parents that I was born into the wrong lifestyle because everything I love demands money, a lot of it. Sometimes can't help feeling they're right.
lyrics: Foo Fighters - Erase/Replace
Division
Revision
Recognate
An action
A reaction
Distraction
Question the fate
Revision is impossible. No matter how hard I try, I cannot focus enough to revise and my first of seven exams is on monday. ARGH! [proof VV]
Also my mum has further complicated things, although possibly in a good way. So she used to work as a nanny & one of the families she worked for were/are race horse trainers. The other day I told my mum that the only thing I've ever wanted to do is work with horses & I wouldn't care if it left me completely broke. Believe it or not she suggested contacting the family she worked for saying she could get me a job working for them, or use them as a contact to get me somewhere else. Now normally I would jump at the chance BUT I cannot watch steeplechasing on television after seeing horses die in the grand national. I am not enjoying uni. I do not want to be a civil engineer. What do I do? Face my fear (if you can call it that) or stick out my degree at try to get a half-decent qualification?! My brain tells me one thing, my heart another.
I am repeatedly told by my parents that I was born into the wrong lifestyle because everything I love demands money, a lot of it. Sometimes can't help feeling they're right.
lyrics: Foo Fighters - Erase/Replace
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